Break has created a little bit of space to breathe (despite the 1000 plus pages of homework to read before I return to SC!). Seeing friends and family, being surrounded by familiar haunts and faces I know have all contributed to the restorative experience that comes with a Christmas in Turkey.
I've been keeping an eye on both my present and past experiences as I process last semester and my other rough transitionary periods, and I'm trying to come up with a definition of independence and aloneness that works within the constructs of who I am and what I have to work with. Let me decode that poor little word puzzle for you. :)
Essentially, I'm realizing that I'm not as independent a person as I thought. I'm not someone who needs to have people around me all the time, and I think I confused the trait of being able to enjoy doing some things alone with the schizoid preference of doing everything alone. My new conclusions, upon studying two instances of difficult (and utterly alone) transitions, clues me into the fact that I do not, in fact, do well in transitions when I transition alone. I can make friends anywhere if I have a social base from which I operate and to which I can return at any point.
The implications for treatment? (My gosh, I'm becoming utterly noxious in my counseling treatment lingo). When I make transitions in the future, it would be best if I transitioned into an already existing social network or transitioned with a social network (ie: moved with a friend). This is all fine and good in theory, but I'm not sure how to apply it without becoming a social leech. I don't like leeches.
Suggestions?
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